I keep replaying things in my head, trying to see if there is a new way to look at it all.
Chris didn’t really try to kill me…that’s not what I’d believed all this time. Its still a bit of a shock to the system to know that she still cares…and maybe even loves me. She’s never said it. But hell, I’ve never said it. Now I am thankful I didn’t. Would it make her feel guilty?
Does she even have her own emotions? Or is that a bunch of bull just like everything else? There are so many questions…and I will refuse to ask them. I have no reason to really ask them. I did, after all, learn to survive my undeath without her.
While its good to know she is alive, I can’t help but be even angrier at her for not even visiting my shallow grave after she thought I was dead. If she had, she’d known I rose as a vampire. Apparently, she doesn’t give a damn like she says. Or perhaps I am just making up excuses to be angry with her. Hell, I don’t know anymore
Chris didn’t really try to kill me…that’s not what I’d believed all this time. Its still a bit of a shock to the system to know that she still cares…and maybe even loves me. She’s never said it. But hell, I’ve never said it. Now I am thankful I didn’t. Would it make her feel guilty?
Does she even have her own emotions? Or is that a bunch of bull just like everything else? There are so many questions…and I will refuse to ask them. I have no reason to really ask them. I did, after all, learn to survive my undeath without her.
While its good to know she is alive, I can’t help but be even angrier at her for not even visiting my shallow grave after she thought I was dead. If she had, she’d known I rose as a vampire. Apparently, she doesn’t give a damn like she says. Or perhaps I am just making up excuses to be angry with her. Hell, I don’t know anymore